My LIFE as I Know IT

so hey im back but not for long ….so life just seems to get worse  for me lately i mean a nail went in my toe very painful yet it didnt hurt ….i havent talk’d to lee in 3 weeks …..my mom wants me out in 3days ….havent talk’d to my best friend for almost 3 weeks….i was sick for well lets just say im almost back with the living….and i think im going crazy …its all kinda crazy really i mean im numb inside i mean things that should hurt like hell to where you should scream ..cry …get pissed off …i dont ..i mean i may feel it but i dont feel it ..you know …i think i kinda givin up …which is not good in my case …i dont like not feelin any pain . i mean its like this i cut myself and didnt even know it untill i saw blood on my shirt and the whole nail in toe thing it didnt hurt ..plus side from that was i grossed out my brothers  so i geuss im done cryin i mean yes i did cry when things were said that shouldnt have been said ,i cried hard and then i realized  when there was no one ( well the people i trusted with my life) wasnt there i got to move on …so im moving out of my moms house and take things from there …but untill i move out i got to fake it to i make it …and if that means cry myself to sleep every night well thats just what i’ll do…i havent been fighting back and it is driving my mom nutts and kinda makin things worse but ….but if your heart got blown to a ton of tiny parts by your mom and the few people you really trusted ( note that i dont trust easly) then you well see how much fight you have left..well im gettin kinda bored so im goin go …LATER