tryin be someone i dont even know
so no answer o well we arent talking and she told me she wasnt answerin if i called for awhile hats off to ya ……so when i got home i was real quiet i went to my room fell on my bed and just lay’d there staring at feet and it made me smile why ?? one night i was talking to ******* we were talking about something and some how we started talking about feet o well anyways i brother came in my room and was talking and my little sister was pionting and nameing the photo’s of people i had my wall and it was like i was there but i wasnt i was just nodding and stuff never said a word they didnt seem to care i was nodding so they were fine with it ….how do you tell someone goodbye ..not meaning see you later or untill next time but goodbye for good its not as some people make it sound see i never say goodbye …i’ll say bye or later or see ya …but never goodbye unless im cutting you out of my life …yeah i know im weird like that…..{ thinking } so do you ever wish you could trun back time i do but not only till a week or so ago like i said before i dont have regrets and i’ve done stuff im not to proud of hate to say but i now have regrets about something ………im just talking a whole bunch of nothing …..sigh….so im wide awake yay…..my grandpa is getting worse and i cant do nothing about it needless to say he understands me in all of my crazyness i lose him then what ? my mom doesnt get me neither does my brother or sister ….jenna got me but died ….i think ******* gets me but i messed that up so we really dont talk …i have people yet i have no one …..so last to tuseday i was at church and stuff and i could see all the little groups talking laughing hugin and it just hit me really fast never mind …..so it 12:34am 
well im goin go try and make my self sleep …later
well im goin go try and make my self sleep …later
Posted by in 05:33:16
how come u like to torture urself? quit it, plus, it’s not only u got a flood of problems…