My LIFE as I Know IT

so i got up early i thought i would sleep to like noon or something but i didnt so i have  a interview 2morrow at 5pm and i have 2 people comeing to my church at 6:30pm …i dont know i i want them to come now ..heres why..ok so i use to talk alot about church and and a few people and stuff  but now if they come and see its not like that{ well it use to be} …i just dont want them seeing how much of a loser i am …i cant say dont come …i could say im not feeling well or something i’ll think of something….it seems  like the more i try to fit in the more i dont ..and you cant help not listening to what people say cuz when you think about it and it looks like they are right it can bring you down o well ….i need a hug right now  but theres no one  to give me one and i dont want to call anyone  or e-mail i want it with out asking  you know ….anyways i made this cool necklace  yesterday  im going to wear it all week so later on im going to buy some clothes for my interveiw well im goin  go make a phone call ..and then clean my room cuz when all else fails thats what i do to keep myself busy so i dont have to over think about things people say so later

so my day has been pretty good …i was out at  kent.lake all day ..  my face got too much sun but not my legs o no that would be to right  :P….it was so pretty out there but o course my camera  wasnt working   ..while i was out there i kept  thinking about #@L%^2…. o well so i’ve been doing some hard thinking  o well i’ll write more 2morrow later