dont act like you care ..when you know you dont!
k so my world so going so nutso on me and im not liking it not one bit……me and my mom all week at each other…and now i have 2weeks again untill she wants me out …..she called me everything but a child of god ….what i think is she talk’d to jade but if she did ….im a gonner for sure ….jade is not making life easy for me at all …maybe i should just let her srew my life up and then i’ll just run away and not come back …cuz my mom said 2day get the hell out of my life ur nothing but a worthless piece of sh*t ..i know i can feel the love so why in the world would i want to leave and not come back almost everybody i know i brought them nothing but hurt …and i dont like it …and i hate smiling when i want to cry i was so sick teusday it wasnt even funny ….im once again thinking there is really no reason for me here and its not good but who really cares as long as im smiling and say im fine thats good enough for everybody ..and if i told them i wasnt then they would say o you just need to pray and read the bible and stuff dont get me wrong i love god and stuff but how is it gonna work when im way far gone …heres what happen the other day i told someone i wasnt doing well so they say a pray’r for me and pat me on the back and left really fast …yeah i felt the love so much that i wanted do what i almost did the other day ….o well just so you know im NOT having A good WEEK!!!…..and tony keeps calling and hanging up….ugh…thats what i have to say and its not easy at work cuz alot of them smoke and cuse and stuff o well i just have to deal atleast untill sunday and never mind so here is a poem i wrote at church teusday……………hold me when im scared
hold me when im alone
hold me when my heart cant seem to find home
hold me tonight
hold me to sleep; let me rest in your arms because your promises
you keep
hold me throught the question ” why” ?
hold me till my tears run dry….just hold me
so i have to go clean up the hall way and call this number i have and take a shower before i call some one maybe it will help relaxe so later
my tears ran out a long time ago… although kelly clarkson’s because of you have always made my eyes wet.
hey like the poem lots. some strong feelings in this, the poems now posted on my wall {one of the best things ive read in a long time}. it centered me when i needed it. thank you
HOLD ME WHEN CRY HOLD WHEN FEEL ALONG LOOK ON FACE TELL YOU LOVE ME IT TRUE WHEN FAR WAYS I MISS SO MUCH WHEN HERE YOU BRING HAPPYNESS OUT IN ME AND ALWAYS SMILE BUT I WITH SOME IT HURT BECAUSE WANT BE WITH YOU BUT CANT HOLD WHEN CRY HOLD JUST ONE NIGHT TELL YOU LOVE ME TO DONT LIE TELL TRUE IT HURT IF LIE BUT LESS KNOW TRUE SO HOLD TEAR COME DOWN FACE WHEN SAY LOVE TO BE HAPPNESS TEAR SHOULD LEAVEN HIM AND TELL HOW REALLY ME AND HIM HAS 2 YEAROLD KID TOGHER BUT NOT HAPPY ANY MORE SO WHAT SHOULD DO SHOULD CRY BECAUSE I FEEL SHOULD FEEL THIS HAVE AKID WITH HIM SHOULD SOME ELES I FEEL LIKE DO HIM WRONG WE BEEN THOUGHT SO MUCH I STAY BY SLEF EVER HAD NOTHIN KID WITH SOME ELES WHY WITH ME BUT I FALL OUT LOVE WITH HIM I START LOVE SOME NEW WHAT SHOULD DO PLESES TELL ME