My LIFE as I Know IT

so i’ve been sick yaaa not so much i havent been able to sleep  at all i didnt close my eyes untill like 4ish it drove me nutts  i got up at 7am PEOPLE  i do not  get up at that time i lay’d there untill like 9:30ish and got ready to go to my grandma’s in which whom i havent seen in like 6months  i was there all day and then one of my aunts was there and then all of  5 of my grandma’s sisters came over  all i wanted to do was sleep but i stuck it out for a bit my great aunt pinch’d my cheek sayin how cute i was what am i 4 come on  and then they all started talking about how cute i was when i was little and  how i used sing forevery one and crazy stuff like that and then the pictures came out o my gosh i about died then i snuck out into the other room and lay’d down i woke up with cover’d up sweet right they took a picture of me sleeping sayin o how cute she is growning up so fast  i was like aww nutts  and now im dieing i feel so sick and yet i cant sleep  no one is on line they have a life o well later

so im at the library with my head phones on kinda bored tryin  to get some work done tryin not to fall asleep BOREDOM is kicking in   :P  so i wonder if i droped a pen on the table would it make a noiseor maybe my cell phone ..hmmm…yes imm bored …later

 

 

 

so today wasnt all that good  well bright side i had a good day at work ..but then after  work  i get a call from my boyfriend  and then he  say`s im just not ready to be in a relationship my heart just drop even deeper i geuss i should start from the beinging here goes….so i might my howard one nite at my friend hil’s house  her folks had some people over and he was one of the many people they interduesed me to . i thought he looked cute and so my type..  so i went on about my ruberband poping war he just stood watching and stuff after a few thousand bruises later we took a break from the war….  he sat on the chair across from me and he started to talk to his buddy next to him ..you know how you can feel someone stareing at you yeah so i looked at him and he acted like he wasntin lookin but that just started the whole im looking but not looking thing by the end of the night we swicthed numbers  and do you when i left like 20minutes later he calls but i couldnt answer cuz i was at my friends house ..but when i was on my way home he called again we talk for a bit then i was like i`ll call you when i get home so i did like around 1:30am  we talked untill like 3am and i had to be up for work at 7ish and then from then on we talked everyday and then a week later we  went on our frist date it was really funny so he offers to pick me up from work and then we went to my house but se truned around we went to far a freeway and ended up at a gastation right next to a old friends house its funny the way things fall in place so we get to my place and i take a shower he plays vedio games with my roommate  and then we watch`d a movie with my roommate at the house and we had pizza i fell asleep in his arms ( cuz i was really tried from work and he was super warm) right in the middle of the  V-movie and get this then we went to the movies just me and him later on that nite we were listening to my flyleaf cd and we had our frist kiss that nite …and from then we were almost always with each other with my friends or hisor just us after awhile things started to get hard for us people we know were saying it wasnt good for us to be with each other so i was stressin about that and then he wanted more and i wasnt ready ,,so this past week we were fighting  but useauly he just likes to pick on me cuz he likes my reaction`s but this was different we didnt talk or see each other for like 2daYS then monday he calls and tells me he called his ex and then i didnt talk to him tuesday and then last night he tells me he thinks he wants to get back with his ex so i was like im not gonna beg you to stay with me even thou i dont want you to stay as tears are falling from my face then hes like i gotta go and hangs up..then 2day he calls and we talk for like a hour and then we broke up and he says i still want to be friends! that happen at 5:55pm so my eye`s are all red and i havent talked at all  so yeah i think im alittle broken and the funnyest thing is his ex`s name is Amber  she is my age also wierd huh i thought so too so now he as to ex girlfriends name amber  and geuss what cant tell any one cuz we never told any one lol i think im gonna go to bed for a week or 2

peace