aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh * coughs* so im losin it here is how my week had been…so ive helped a very close friend not kill herself she has a bad cut to show for her bad week…i broke someones heart i try to fix it 2day but a hour of cryin later this person is like i still love you….my mom had a heartattack her artreys were 99% blocked ..three days later my grandma goes for surgry and then we get a call sayin its really bad it spreaded to her i dont know how to spell it its spreadin thou got that news 2day yay :(……ive been dealin with sooo much and well my former roommate doesnt really know how to help…but its not like ive been opening up to people either which has always been hard for me cuz i get close then i lose people or srew up to where they dont want to know im alive…….my world is tryin to kill me …thats all
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
so 2day just suckd alround work was so boring and i found out my grandma has breast cancer…
when i got home i ran for about a hour just cryin and running dumb right a friend told me well people die so not what i wanna to hear and that i should be lucky! that she is as old as she is ..why in the hell would she tell me that i mean i love god but i also love my grandma okay its selfish for me not to want her die but o well im selfish i dont care……ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im so ahhhhhhhhhhhhh right now
