My LIFE as I Know IT

so yea my life isnt really all that good infact it SUCKS im losing people i love and hold close to my heart so here more dramma..cant get enough NOT!! ….how do i start here goes so im inlove with someone wew were seeing each other well its been about a month and some days.. i mean this like heart stoping love … cant think stright ..cant breathe …. for the frist time and my life i was inlove  its the most power thing that can happen its crazy ….well yea that person broke things cuz dominichi couldnt be here to protect me from this creep that was messin with me see here how it went…..i had a realllly bad day and i wrote dominichi a e-mail sayin im gonna hide  out for a while and said dont worry…well dominichi wrote back and said okay dont take forever to fly back to me { cuz i like butterflies} and well very long story short my fone was about to die and dominchi said your goona hate me but forget about me rip up the card i sent you just forget about me plz bye amber….do you know ive been numb every scince..i cant do nothing u know dominichi is in spain with fam cuz here the kicker thier grandma is dieing…my older bro just found me 2day cuz i sorte ran off thats what i do …STUPID i know..but i cant just forget about this person i mean we talked about gettin married and everything we are sooo much alike the other nite we were just on the computer talkin and we both were listening to our ipods and i was like you know what song reminds me of you and i told and then we found out we were  listening to the same song and it was our frist song on our ipods we both have crazy moms and stuff we kept each other sane okay here comes the mushy stuff i told dominichi that i loved em and well i dont say that to everybody and this is the frist time i said it mean i was inlove! and why we broke cuz we love each other too much to see the other and pain and not able to do anything { cuz we live a few states away} and well dominichi told me the other day when i hurt geuss who hurts also …and its the same for me too one nite dominichi kinda ran off and didnt tell any one and well dominichi callz me and was crying i started crying cuz i felt the pain when we hear each other voice  it takes the pain away and we make each other laugh soo hard its crazy..i never knew what i was missing untill now…and let me tell you it hurts like HELL and SO CAN YOU SEE WHY I DONT GET CLOSE TO PEOPLE IT ENDS BADLY FOR ME TO WHERE IM NUMB AND NOT WANTING TO BE HERE SO I SIT HERE LIKE A DUMBASS WHO MESSED UP HER ARM STILL HERE NOT WANTING TO BE HERE ..BUT IM HERE FEELING NUMB ONCE AGAIN I DONT HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO GO TO SPAIN CUZ .. heres why im really numb after our convo dominichi got in a car crash and well in the hospital and well heres what the brother said was in a coma and now eyes are open and then my bro talked to the brother and well they feel the doc isnt tellin them everything…so yea the love of my life could be dieng  on me see we were fine when we were together and now look at us not even a day we about kill ourselfs a good we are doing..huh…